Rio de Janeiro — Loving an unlikable place

The other day, CNN’s top headline was: Rio 2016’s ‘perfect storm.’ “The Olympic Games arrive in Brazil at a time when the country is ravaged by crises,” it began, then detailed the Zika virus, the government meltdown, and economic woes. “No news,” one […]Read More ›

A goodbye to writing

Lately I’ve been thinking about quitting writing. Fantasizing about it, in fact. And this fantasy is sad and confusing because writing has been my identity for 33 years. Because I don’t really know who I am without it. For a decade, […]Read More ›

What I learned in 2015

In October, one of my molars became abscessed. Despite copious amounts of Tylenol and Ibuprofen, the pain was persistent, would wake me up at night. I fantasized about extracting my molar with plyers as I cried. After a root canal, […]Read More ›

Do I have PTSD?

The last time I blogged it was February, and I wrote about writing and how I love writing and how it sometimes seems like the people and the things we love are preordained, out-of-our-control. We love them and we can’t […]Read More ›

Why we love what we love

Since 2001, I’ve been asked why I joined the military a thousand times. “What made you love it?” people ask. And I tell them that I wanted to travel, be a public servant, and go to college for free. But that’s […]Read More ›

What I Learned in 2014

Each December, as the new year approaches, I like to meditate on the lessons I’ve learned the previous 12 months. December’s cold and darkness make it conducive to this type of introspection. There’ve been a few times this year, and more broadly […]Read More ›

The Psychology of Putting Up Pictures

On Monday, Minneapolis had its first snowfall. Autumn is unofficially over, and today I opted to make the best of it. In the morning, I photographed Lake of the Isles. Then I bought a bottle of Bailey’s, came home, and began writing. “It’s […]Read More ›

Traveling in My Mind is Harder Than Afghanistan

Picture: Jaipur, India For the past six weeks I’ve travelled extensively — in my mind. The log of my “psychological travels” is this 4,500-word essay that I wrote about my mother’s mental illness, my romantic relationship, my work with Medicaid […]Read More ›